Imprisoned behind the curtain of the waterfall

When you are in love. Things start to look beautiful. Your perspective to life changes to be positive.

It’s like the feeling of being on a high after snorting a shitful of heroin. Feels like you are in the sunny state of self awareness. But the truth is you are just concentrated on love and the positives it starts showing you. But the world doesn’t change.

Once you are out of the hallucinations, fog starts to clear. You were imprisoned behind the curtain of the waterfall called love. You never wanted to bail out cause of the beautiful fog it creates where you could only see the world as magical nonetheless. You said to yourself that you won’t ever go back down there.

But that’s when the jailor, who put you in that jail, kicks your butt and make you jump out from there right into the river beneath it. That’s when that mist shatters. You start seeing the world clearly. Its not as beautiful as it looked through that curtain of the waterfall. You don’t get to see the double rainbows anymore from down there.

From down here you can see the real picture. Where also exist the not so beautiful humans as well. Although they are not so beautiful but they are glorious in their own ways.

It’s like when you come out of beautiful Summer, enters Autumn. Season of the fall. But there lies beauty in the fallen leaves as much as it was there in those sunny Summer day.

Moments of Ardor!

How far we have come,
How far we have become.

Our love will be forever,
Our trust will be broken never,
Is what we promised on that day.

The day we were swinging our legs,
while sitting on the aisle on that seaside.

On that rooftop under the sky,
When our souls danced tirelessly,
You said distances won’t matter.

Well, they did.

See now, see how.

How far we have come,
How far we have become.

Nebula beneath your eye ball

The way you look into my eyes,
I could see the nebula in there;
Waiting to implode,
A black hole would be born here.

Where would be you,
Where would be me,

Suspended mid space…

Traveling at the speed of light,
Where there is no light,
But just you, me and the black vacuum.

I carry your heart with me! I carry it in my heart!!

Today I would like to share with you all, one of my favorite poems by the great E. E. Cummings.


Whenever I recite this poem, it takes me deep down the memory lane to strike that intentionally hidden chord. Hope you all enjoy it with all it’s due respect.


I carry your heart with me
(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it
(anywhere i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear

no fate
(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world
(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

E. E. Cummings (1894-1962 AD)

Taking the control of your own life!

In our lives, we live through different phases. We meet new people, different people. People who were just strangers to us and then they slowly become our acquaintances, then friends and sometimes something more.
As this happens to everybody, this all has had happened to me as well. After leaving home years back, when I came to start a new phase of my life. It was the start of my professional career. I started meeting new people, everyday. Some of them I didn’t even notice when they came in and went out of my life. But some of them came to stay for long. Friends, close friends, best friends and more. We met, we laughed our stomachs out, we roamed, we explored, we shared things, we conversed. I felt really blessed with these people in my life. But then the next phase came in my life, when i saw these people go out my life as well. I was a whole new person, when they went.
Before these people came in my life, I was living a normal, not much funny, a bit serious, disciplined life. But the life i was living was joyous, self-contented, not dependent on somebody else, not living through someone else’s decisions. I was happy. I was enjoying life. I was alive. Not that with these people I didn’t enjoy or felt alive. But there was something else to this. I felt changed after their vanishing act.
Post their existence in my life, my life started changing, I as a person started changing. The circumstances which came along with these people, stirred the change in my life and my personality.
Now I was totally engaged with these people. When people meet their values, their thoughts, their personalities collide and affect mutually. I saw myself adapting myself values that those people had. Earlier, I had a habit of not letting things go, but now I was letting things go. I started taking decisions based on the circumstances, decisions which could make a great negative difference to my life in a longer run. I saw myself loosing out on my own values.
But all these people come as a phase in our life, unless they are your true soul mate. Rest of the people come and go. Like the waves in the ocean, some waves are high and some are low. High waves make a great impact on the surfer and low waves doesn’t.
When these people went of my life and I got the chance to reassess the path of my life. I saw how my path had deviated after i had met these people. If I didn’t take any actions my life’s path which is now deviated from it’s original course, it’s gonna stay this way. So I started list down all the aspects on which had caused the deviation.
I came up with the following things:
  • Letting go attitude
  • Loosing out on my own values
  • Being too selfless for those people
  • Doing things which mattered to those people, but might be against my own values or morals
  • Leaving my own regular routines (i.e. fitness routing), for giving out more time to those people
Then I thought how can I fall back to my original path of life from which I had deviated. Things which should make me the same man I was before, were as following:
  • Discipline
  • To value my own values
  • Stay on the routines, no matter what
  • Self-compassion
  • Do what I love
I started following these things again now with more rigidity and I can now see where I am heading. I’m heading the right way. I’m meeting new people still, making friends still but while keeping up with the above things. I found the control of my own life back to myself.
By taking my own example here, I had mentioned several things above. But it doesn’t mean that people that I had met were wrong or they disturbed my life. No! That’s not what it is. The reason for my life path’s deviation was myself. I started loosing out on myself. That’s what caused this deviation.
This happens with a great number of people in the world. When they take decisions under painful situations or circumstances, which leads them to a life path which is not good in the longer run.
So the bottom line is we will live through different phases of life. We will definitely meet different people. These situations will arise. But it’s up to you, what you choose and what you let go. If you choose to stay with your own values or let them go. If you choose your disciple or let them go. If you choose to do what you love or let it go.
Of-course sometimes compromising a little is not that bad, for something or someone you love. Sometimes it’s not that bad to loosen up a bit and let go. It’s not wrong. But just watch out, if you don’t compromise your whole personality for someone else’s sake and you don’t let go of yourself. That IS wrong.
Just put your values on priority and keep up with your routines, no matter what! Cause these are the things you do for yourself, not for others. If you mix these things right, while you being with the people you love. That would be the life worth living with joy, pride and no regrets.
So go ahead, take back the control of your own life. Be yourself and stay motivated.